Oh no!

I want you back!!

Michael Jackson 1958 - 2009

Rest in peace my dearest. You will be missed

Song of the day: Gone Too Soon - Michael Jackson

A Blast from the Past

Ran into a person who used to mean a great deal to me a while back.
It was nice to see that everything was OK but other than that it was nothing. It is strange how people you once really liked and really cared about suddenly seem lie total strangers and you have no desire to get to know them again.
From what I have heard from others this person is the worlds a-hole anyway so I guess the loss is smaller than minor.

A while back I received a letter from a person who claims to be my biological brother (for those that don't know I am adopted from Liberia). This man lives in the US, make sense since my biological father apparently also lives there, and he said that "our" mother wa there visiting him.
After a few weeks I replied. It took me a while to work up the nerve and figure out what to write to him.
I got another letter where he suddenly wanted money - suppse I shoudl have seen that one coming- and he also wanted me to find him a Swedish woman he could marry. I am not only a bank, I am also a pimp... Great!
What shall I answer?? Go to the bank, you freak!
No I'll keep it low and just ignore him, like screening my calls.

On the upside: I have, or we have, decided where to go on holiday: fly to Munich and then hire a car and go through Austria, northen Italy and Croatia.
Mr S' son is coming too and M. Henri will join us in Croatia. I think it'll be great fun.
And I will get to drive on the autobahn - no speed limits. I hope we can rent an Alfa Romeo :)

Take care
Love/E

Song of the day: Hush Hush - Pussycat Dolls

London again

Was in London with sis over the week end. It was lovely - I really like London.
Eventhough we are very different, she is quite the earlybird and I am not. It went quite well, we walked around a lot. We stayed in Bloomsbury which was great. That is where I am staying next time I'm in town.

At work my week from hell is over, finally. We landed the big celebration project and it was a succes. So today I am tired even if I acted very grown up and went home directly when the party was over. Was home around 1.45 in the morning (please note I called it morning had you asked me when I was in my 20ies 1.45 would be night time).
I think all in all the party was a huge success and everyone had a good time.
Today I am so tired so I am staying in with a movie on the couch and perhaps a galss of champagne.
Simply because I am worth it :)

Take care
Love/E

Song of the day: Hush Hush - Pyssycat Dolls

One year older

and one year wiser... I hope.

Spent my birthday with friends and family. Had dinner at Pontus by the Sea which was nice.

Sis came back from Vienna with a whole lot of nice things: wine, cheese ans ham. From Mr S I got a really cool bag from designer Kenneth Cole red and very cool - loves it!

Work is busy, I usually come home at around 7 pm daily which I don't like. Work takes way too much time out of life right now.

But on the upside: sis and I are off to London for the week end, doing girls stuff. Shopping, eating good food: I've made reservations at Boxwood Café - one of Gordon Ramseys places that will be interesting :)

Now I must pack

Take care

/Love E

Song of the day: Hush Hush - Pussycat Dolls

Recovery

Had a lovely long week end.
I am at the moment addicted to "Without a Trace" , replaced on addiction - CSI - with another. I bought the first 3 seasons so I spent all Thursday night and almost all day Friday watching TV.
Saturday was dinner with friends night. I cooked: my own version of Duck à l'orange with grilled vegetables followed by cheese.
Had a friend of Mr S', his girlfriend and my girl I for dinner, turned out really great. The girlfriend, am embarrased to say that I don't remember her name, was a bit shy and silent but I think she enjoyed herself anyway.
Mr S true to his style offered our guests some Absinth. I can't stand the stuff but the others enjoyed it.

Went running on Monday night for the first time this season and it went quite well.

At them moment I am following a series of articles on abused women in Aftonbladet. There are some real tragedies but I keep asking myself: why do these women stay with the men.
Yes, I know it's easy for me to sit here with a good job, nice apartment, no financial troubles and a man who really loves me and ask these questions... but still why stay???

I was once in a bad relationship with a man who was very insecure. His insecurity made him put me down in every way he could think off. I was too fat, to skinny, didn't dress right and on and on. Yet I stayed with him for almost 2 years. It ended when he slapped me with a newspaper in the face. I threw him out, he wanted to come back but I gathered all my strenght and resisted him.
Eventually I took all the stuff he left at my apartment, some really nice clothes, and gave it to a charity organisation.
I ran in to him on the street some years ago. I was on my way to the Pride parade, his comment was: "Well, it's good that we are not together anymore so i don't have to be embarrased if anyone sees you in the parade"
The next day I was on the cover of the paper carrying the rainbow flag :) I so hope he saw that picture!

Ladies, remember you all are worth the best and nothing less.
If your man does not respect you, you kick is sorry ass out once and for all.

If you need help: http://www.aftonbladet.se/nyheter/153kvinnordodade/article5004569.ab

Take care of yourself and each other

Love/E

Song of the day: A Woman's Worth - Alicia Keyes

Good life

Spring is back and I'm glad!

Today I am supporting the working class by doing nothing more than drinking wine and watching TV. Seems like a good statement to make.

Mr S and me had brunch at Anglais and then went for a ride.

Tomorrow we are having some people over for dinner and I'm going to crack one my favorites: Elisabeth Salmon 1998 rose champagne

Have said it before and I'm saying it again: I lead a charmed life

Take care

Love/E

Song of the day: Good Song - Saleem Al Fakir

Things I've seen...

Am back from London and at home in bed. Caught a cold, possibly on the flight back home. There was this woman who was seriously coughing her lungs out all the way from London to Stockholm - not very nice.

But I have seen some lovely things. Am already looking forward to going back with sis in May.

British museum - interesting saw among other things the mumies and the Rosetta Stone

Covent Garden - quite an odd place but I bought a nice dress there

Musical - Priscilla - Queen of the Desert, my favourite movie ever and we got some last minute tickets in one of the shops close to Picadilly Circus. It was LOVELY!

"Life is an adventure - Dress Accordingly"

A pub called "The Old Cock" - I laughed for an entire block :)

Harrod's - ah yes, everything one needs to live

Harvey Nicks - liked it but the Istanbul version was better

Manolo Blahnik store - Now, looking back I can agree on the fact that 995 pounds is a lot for a pair of shoes but I still mourn them. Mr S bought his first pair of Manolos - he is more and more becoming one of us...

Food in a pub - I ordered a hamburger and it tunred ou to be a good way of ruining both my mood and 200 grams of perfeclty good Angus beef. Too bad!

Fish and chips - at Harrod's Sea food bar lovely and with 2 glasses of Chablis and a side of Alexander McQueen bag

Docklands - cool bar but bad service. If I order an anti pasto it mean I want it before my main course. I don't want to hear from the waitress "Oh you actually wanted the anti pasto" while bringing my main course...

Street life - very nice. All sorts of people in all sorts of places. We lived in Kensingon which was nice but if I ever move to London I have decided to live at Old Church road, it's filled with the nicest red brick houses with small gardens.

London Eye - high, too many people. Nice view though

Dali exhibition - Love Dali, very good exhibition

Taxis - big confortable and cheap

Metro - Tried it one day, possibly the worst day since 3 of the lines where closed for upgrading so there was a bit of going back and forth. Most of the time we walked actaully. Never tried the buses but they look cool.

Restaurants - so many restaurants so little time. I prebooked The Boundary a very cool place in up and coming district of Shoreditch. Not too expensive, very high service level and good food.

Bars - Met up with girlfriend I from work and her London buddies and tried some bars in Soho. Cool night life!

Chinese food in China town - so good

Indian food - really nice

I like London so now when I have seen most of the tourist stuff I can spend my next visit just strolling around and getting a feel of the town.

Tke care

Love E

Song of the day: When It was Good - Flipsyde

Summertime

and the living is easy. Last night watches changed +1 hour.

I wish my job was easy too. I really really reall don't like it anymore. If I were to leave I know I would be ok. Fortunately I have a husband who makes a lot of money but I'd have to say good bye to my friends Manolo, Salvatore and Marc and I am not ready to do that just yet. So I'll hang in there and keep trying.

My bitching about my job seems quite petty when I read about wonderful Lotta who is fighting for her life. I wish her all the best and a long and happy life with husband and child.

My husband is next to me on the couch watching his favourite Jason Bourne film.

Theis weekend we haven't really done anything. I have been working a bit and we have been fixing the apartment. Next week end the hallway will get new wall paper and one corner in the living room will become blue. Should be cool.

For easter we are off to London! It is my first visit ever! So I am really looking forward to it. Then sis and I are going to London again in the end of May and we might go to Vienna for my birthday.

It's like I use to say: The world is a playground - let's play!

Now I must do my nails :)

Take care

Love/E

Song of the day: Summertime - Billie Holiday

Spring is in the Air

and it's lovely. So today I am going to leave work early...hopefully and then take my convertible out for a spin :) I wish...
Actually I am going to spend Friday night with manual labour: old wall paper has to go. Wonder if it's ok to drink champagne while working. It's not like I am going to be operating heavy machinery or anything.

Celebrated sis' birthday on Tuesday with dinner at SMAK at Restaurangen. It was nice, good food but service was a bit slow. Their concept is that you order small portions, 1, 3, 5 or 7 with a small glass of wine or beer to match the food. Well worth a visit and not to expensive.
Bought her some stuff for her new bathroom: soap dispenser from VIPP and towels from Gant (nb the name dropping ;)). She liked it but wants different colours so Saturday we are going back to the Mothership to change.

Sunday I am going to bring sis and Mr S to see first an art exhibition at the National gallery and then Watchmen - the movie. There is something for everyone :)

Now, I'm off

Take care
Love/E

Song of the day: Fast Cars - Craig David

Re-inventions

Britney is back and she means business. Just got to love her new song "If U seek Amy" and this. My god, people die in the world and this is your major concern...

And this is a cover of a 70 rock song! I learn something new everyday.

I have my mind set on spending easter in London. Found a lovely hotel The Landmark that I want to stay at and quite cheap tickets flying with British Airways. I have, ashamed to admit it, never been to London. Or well once I had a quick stop at Victoria Station on my way to Scarborough.

And I also spent 5 hours waiting at Stanstead airport with my ex. I was strolling around the shops and he was on the phone the entire time. So, if I get my way we will go to London soon. Actually the more I think about it the better it seems. We will avoid the euro as the exchange rates are crazy right now, 1 euro is almost 12 sek, they have just abolished VAT in the UK and the re is a Manolo Blahnik store there. (Which reminds me: I am going to watch some old episodes of SATC later).

"Why Sir, you find no man, at all intellectual, who is willing to leave London. No Sir, when a man is tired of London, he is tired of life; for there is in London all that life can afford"

Samuel Johnson 1777

Take care

Love E

Song of the day: If U Seek Amy - Britney Spears

Love rules

So finally they are getting engaged Crown Princess and her man.
They look fierce together and so so in love. I'm glad for them.

I, on the other hand, am working my ass off and looking forward to the return of the light and the sun. Still haven't had a chance to wear my new shoes since the ground is still covered in snow. God, I really hate snow unless I am skiing on it and that I haven't done in ages.

At the moment I am terribly anooyed by Linda Skugge and the likes of her. I read some of her columns in CHIC magazine. SHe writes about how women who have kids are so much better, sexier, smarter than those who don't. And living in the suburbs is so right and everything else is not real and people (women) who don't have kids have no connection to reality and cannot be stressed out since they don't know what stress is.
I should not let insecure women like her get to me but seriously...
Isn't it hard enought to be a woman these days without having to turn on eachother? Instead, can't we just respect eachothers choices and be happy for eachother? I admit: screaming kids on a plane or in a restaurant annoys the hell out of me and I do believe that some places just are not the right place to bring your children but that does not mean I cannot be happy for a woman who wants kids and gets pregnant.
I have chosen not to have any children - that is my choice and I am content. So many times have I heard "oh you change your mind" -Hello, I'm 35 almost 36 I don't htink so or "you'll regret it eventually" - Well then I'll get a dog and a young lover to keep me occupied

What if I would go up to a pregnant woman and say "Oh you'll change your mind" or "what if you'll regret it". They'd probably slap me.

Would it be more fun if we instead embraced our differences? If we were all the same - imagine what the world would be like?!?!

Now - back to work

Take care
Love/E

Song of the day: Flo - Rida - Round and Round

And then the snow came

again....

It is seriously white outside.

I bought new shoes in Copenhagen that I am dying to use but I can't while it's snow up to my knees outside.

Copenhagen was very nice. We stayed at a good hotel, The Phoenix and had our Valentines day dinner att a very good restaurant Ego - really really nice food and atmosphere.

Saturday we spen mostly checking out the shops: Illum, Birger Christensen, Magasin du Nord. Sunday we met up with Mr S' son and his very pregnant girlfriend. She is.. nice nothing more nothing elss just nice. Not very funny and not vey interesting just nice. I always thought he would go for someone a bit more... of everything. She has a very annoying habit of talking about him when he is sitting just next to her "A thinks this" and "A likes that"- hello, he is 27 years old and can answer a question by him self.

This week I have been very cultural: Tuesday I went to the opera and saw Swan Lake and yesterday I saw Cabaret. Swan Lake was wonderful but Cabaret was quite disappointing.

Now I have to do my nails...

Take care

Love/E

Song of the day: The Wrestler - Bruce Springsteen

Rock around the Clock

Yesterday Mr S and me went to see "Buddy Holly - the musical". We got free tickets from work - one of the upsides to my job. It was really good, I was plesantly surprised. Buddy Holly made some seriously cool music that still works today.

Friday I had champagne, I would say I had a huge amount of champagne, with sis, Mr S and girlfriend T. Simply because we are worth it :) We had dinner at a newly opened, or reopened, italian restaurant "Per Lei", really great. If you are in the neighboorhood it is well worth a visit, Birger Jarlsgatan 24.
Saturday I watched Top Model - Canada almost all day and that was about it. Oh, I ordered pizza online as well. Good thing these online stuff, I only had to leave the couch to answer the door :)
And of course the Swedish Eurovision Song Contest has started. It is amazing how an entire nation just stops and spends an evening in front of the tv watching it. As do I...
Sunday we went to visit the Nordic Light Furniture fair - very artsy. It's amazing how some people suffer from a "I am desinger therefore I am dressed in balck and acting difficult"-complex. Lighten up - everything is more fun then.

Met up with gay-boyfriend J, he still looks amazing: like a dark haired Ken doll. We had a few laughs while watching and commenting on fashion statements of people passing by.

Now I am going home. Mr S is out of town so tonight I'll watch "Wall-E" and eat pop corn

Take care

Love/E

Song of the day: American Pie - Artist of your choice

Spanked

Looks like the Swedish hockey team is about to smack up the Russians. This I like. At the moment Sweden - Russia 3-1

Mr S is half asleep next to me on the couch. Yesterday his best friends N was here and they spent most of the evening and night doing "boy-stuff"while I was doing girl-stuff in the bathroom.

Work is busy, haven't been home before 7 at all this week but tomorrow it's Friday and I'm meeting sis and my posse for some champagne - simply because we are worth it :)

Now: time to download some more music

Takce care

Love/E

Song of the day: Rock Away - Lazee

Back to earth

Have been oh so busy with oh so boring things lately. Not even worth mentioning - only work.
But Saturday sis, Mr S, Henri and me joined the frenzy of the Stockholm nightlife at it's best and went to berns to see and hear Omar. It's been a long time. last time I saw him was in Paris and he was really down and out back then. Too much of everything. But Saturday he looked great and sounden great. I managed to get his autograph before the show and thank him for a great show afterwards.
Berns was crazy: too young, too much booze and to my surprise (I know, I am getting old) women/girl wearing way to little. When I was younger I would go for either cleavage or legs - not both. At a very young age I learnt that cover it up is sexier. These girly women were wearing next to nothing: short skirts, short tops or hot pants...
I suppose I'm getting old but I would never be caught wearing what they were wearing.

The show was really good and sis got really drunk. I suppose it's partly my fault since I bought her a very strong P2 (vanilla vodka, apple sour and sprite). I had one as well but having worked for a year in the restaurant business my tolerance level for alcohol is high, probably too high to be considered healthy...
Anyway, Mr S had the car so we shoved her in the back seat and went home by 2 in the morning.

This week end my aunt is turning 70 and I'm called to "family duty" to appear at a surpsie party for her on Saturday. I suppose all my boring cousins will be there with their obnoxious kids. Wonder what I shall wear...

Well I'm still at work. One might wonder why, at least I do so now I'm off :)

Take care
Love/E

Song of the day: See you in my Nightmares - Kanye West

Yes, we can!

Today is "Yes, we can"-day when Mr Obama will officially be announced the Prsiden of the United States.

I watched his speech on tv, there were some thing I really liked, some I liked and some I didn't like. One thing he said that I reacted to was: We will not change our lifestyle" I really think we all, every signle one of us has o change our lifestyle. If we want this world to go on. The situation we are in today, both the shifts in climate and the financial crisis, depends on something and I do believe it is our lifestyle that has got us all into this situation. 

Now, on a more positive note: I really believe that Mr Obama can and will make a difference. It will be hard and hard descicions must be made but I think if anyone can do it he can.

Personally I have booked a Valentine's Day trip for my man and myself to Copenhagen. I believe in creating things to look forward to. Espescially now during this dark and rainy period.

Now I'm off

Take care

Love/E

Song of the day: Beyoncé - Halo

A good question

Have you stopped living even though you are not dead?

Something to think about....

I do lead a charmed life. Am surfing the web with a glass of Taittinger and watching my husband making me dinner :)

A very good start of the week end.

Take care

Love/E

Song of the day: No Stress - Laurent Wolf

MSC Fanatsia Dec 20 - 28 2008

13 hours of fun

Have had a few lazy days with only some shopping, hanging out with friends and Mr S, eating good food and drinking good wine.

Picked up a pair of pants from HOPE and a shirt from The Shirt Factory so now I am ready for whatever challenges might come my way.

In my horoscope for 2009 it says that thingw won't calm down until October but I will come into some money and home, frineds and family will be important to me this year. I was hoping for something like: You will become financially independent and move to a caslte in Italy where you will spend your days watching the wines grow"

Yesterday I met up with girlfriend T for lunch at Sturehof. We left some 13 hours later after both lunch and dinner, several glasses of wine and champagne. Felt like a good way to end the holidays and to start my detox period. As of now I will limit my intake of red meat, alcohol, salt and sugar. I will go to the gym 2/week and do about 15 mins of pilates at home per day.

Hello Beach 2009 and size 8! Good bye Big Booty and size 10.

Now I will work on uploading some pics from the cruise.

Take care

Love/E

Song of the day: Hot'n'Cold - Kate Perry

Happy New Year

Had a lovely New Years Eve with friends.

Arranged, with very short notice, a really good dinner. Everyone brought 40 euros worth of food so we had oysters, coquilles St Jaques, duck breast, salmon rolls and a lot more. Wine, beer, champagne and booze. I went very easy on the drinking - only half a bottle of chapagne and some dessert wine. The last ones left at 5 in the morning.

The first day of 2009 I spent cleaning the apartment, drove a car back to friends, dropped of M at the station and made chicken burgers and finally watched "Day after tomorrow".

I am trying very hard to not think about work - I don't have to be there until next Wednesday but work still is in the back of my mind all the time. Maybe I should try some yoga to relax me...

Tomorrow I am going to try to upload some photos from the cruise. I have some really great ones from Egypt and the pyramids.

Take care

Love/E

Song of the day: Case of the Ex - Mya